I'm just a HUMAN!

I laugh
when happiness embraces
my heart and my soul;
This I do
for I'm just a Human!

I cry
when people hurt
my heart and soul;
this I do
for I'm just a Human!

I dream
of things unreachable
of horizons undefined;
this I do
for I'm just a Human!

I believe in faith
I crave for love
I dare to dream
BUT I shudder to fight
for all these;
for I'm but a mere human!

Who is Right and who is wrong?who am I to judge???

This happened during one of our High School days. Our teacher conducted a class test but it was left to the two captains to ensure that the test was conducted fairly as he had to leave the classroom for some other agenda. I didn't like the fact that some of the friends were seen taking out their notebooks and copying(what was the use of the test if copying was allowed?). So being the girls captain I raised this issue and asked my friends to stop copying or "I'll report to our teacher". The boys captain, jumped on my back and told the class,"I am not like her(pointing towards me). You all can copy if you want to,I won't report. If sir comes to know about copying, you know who the source is!" I became a villain of 70% of the class mates who thought copying when sir was not present was not a crime. The remaining 30% who wanted the test to be conducted fairly kept quite, not taking any sides, for they didn't want to risk friendship in the name of "kepping things fair!" So I cried alone and felt alienated.

In our lifetime we come across people whom we judge according to their behavior towards us. If somebody is nice and amicable we immediately put them in our "right people" list and there are some people whose ideas differ from ours and we immediately discard them as "wrong people." So in the above mentioned incident 70% of my classmates felt I was wrong.

I Didn't form any judgement about the people who were copying but I immediately categorized the boy captain as a "wrong person" who supported wrong doings. But what I didn't realize at that time was that 70% of the class was voting for him as "Right". And belonging to the society where everything counts based on majority votes, I was the wrong one in this case.

Life is a series of cases. In my opinion I always try to do things that are right but what I am forgetting is that what is right for me may not be right for others. Today I stand on a similar pedestal but with my heart and brain balanced on the scale of life. In a single day,I come across a friend whose marriage is failing and being a human I can't help feeling that my friend's hubby is wrong in treating her this way. I Then I listen to my friends with their differences and again I have to take sides. I listen to the problems of my elders in the family and now that they think of me as a responsible adult member in the family,they discuss the issues with me.

If I am to make an appearance in a movie with all these cases I guess I would look like I had just come out of a shipwreck with all my belongings coming out of the broken suitcase, piled up haphazardly on my head. But then if it was actually a movie I would ask the director to shift the focus to my heart, which would be shown tired and weary with age yet beating its rhythm to a new tune. For I have realized there is no right or wrong at all, its all a trick of one's perception. I am not say I'm wise (that would sound too pompous) but indeed there is a difference in the way I have begun to accept things in life. Where there was a judgement before, I find reasoning! Where I found denial I find acceptance!

So who is right or who is wrong?Don't ask me! After all,who am I to judge????

I Feel better!

I never knew I had Gandhiji's presence in my soul until today. We learned about the satyagraha movement of Gandhiji and if I remember correctly, in the class, I half heartedly listened to the boring history lesson and I candidly confess that when our principal showed us this movie on gandhiji I slept through all kinds of movement, satyagraha or hinsa,whatever!

Leo by birth I sometimes wonder about the well of tears that is easily available in my eyes. I feel my chinese astrological sign suits me more than my zodiac sunsign. I am more of the rooster than a Leo. Being a chicken(rooster) comes more easier to me than a lion(leo). But of late, with many people out to deceive me and twisting the very root of my existence to uproot my soul, I lie quietly on my bed not even casting an angry glance to them(But the tears are obviously there). A thought jabbed me hard in my chest,"you are a coward!"

That made me think a lot,"am I a coward? Am I actually maintaining silence because I can't raise my voice like the other party?" I took myself into the depth and today I've emerged,totally bruised but not beaten, I have my answers,"I am not a coward! Its just that I hate violence!" So then with that new found knowledge I almost felt like I had attained enlightenment.

Then I prepared myself to confront my so called friends and clear all the misunderstanding, just then I came across a line of wisdom from Paulo Coelho,"Don't explain. Your friends do not need it, and your enemies will not believe you!" It made me feel a halo of knowledge around my ignorant heart. I almost jumped with joy!

So, now I am back under my covers but not sulking anymore, I am rigid like a lion that I have my conscience clean and that counts more than the prayers and blessings my enemies attend.

(written to make myself feel better under the circumstances)