I have two souls dwelling in my being; I call one the master soul and the other one the slave soul. But the duo is on a constant hide-and-seek role; when one emerges the other remains subdued and hiding in the recesses of time. My Master soul is confident and so sure of what she wants. Maybe this soul originates from the fact that I am a Leo by birth, my sun sign tells me that I am a born leader maybe this should explain the existence of the master soul in my being. This soul teaches me to fight all things against me with a vengeance truly born with firmness. When my this soul is overpowering my being I stand tall in the crowd and leave all terror aside and I am not scared of performing any task I am asked to perform. I remember one instance from my teenage days, I was playing truth and dare game with my friends and I chose dare. I was asked by my naughty friends to accost the corner boy in our class who never talked with any girls in the class and carried the girl-hater look on him all the time. I guess it was my master soul who made me daring on that day for I went full tall and said "I love you" as if it was merely asking him for the direction to our class.
But wish as I may, I find my slave soul reigning over my total being most of my time. My slave soul makes me stoop low with minimum self-esteem, belittled so much that I'm scared to voice out my choice in my life, making me unable to assert my right as a human being and above all I become a cry-baby for most of my time as a slave soul being. I'm easily overshadowed by my friends and an easy prey to predators who find their mark in practicing their aim of hurting some soul. And I know when this slave soul was born in me; it came into existence since the time I started living as a guest in the houses which I would otherwise have called my homes. Since then, the slave soul has overpowered my master soul and I'm a very docile, so unsure-of-myself being right now and it'll be ages before I see my master soul win the battle against my slave soul. Maybe I would die with the slave soul reining my being and never getting the chance to see my master soul overpower me ever.
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