Another Sad Happy B'day Day for me.

Dear Angie,
Can't believe you are six years old today,am I this old to mother a six year old?(kidding). Can't believe, six years have gone by since the first exulted feeling of fulfilled motherhood. Can't believe six years have gone by in complete love with my life no matter how difficult the journey has been. Can't believe six years has flashed by and it always feels like it was just yesterday, trying to drown my awkward first time mother-to-be scream in the almost life-snatching labor pains.
Sorry I sound like a conceited self-centered person with all these 'can't believes',so before I pour out any one of my 'can't believes', let me talk about you my dear. You will not miss any moments of your time when you were inside me for I've a record of every ante-natal visits to hospital and have a monthly record of our times together in a diary. But since you actually came in our world, I have been so mesmerized by your presence that I have forgotten to continue with the record keeping thing.
Dear, in every picture, in every moments you'll look back at, you will always remember me with all my love for you I know. And why wouldn't I shower you with such love, you are so adorable. Maybe I'll use today's note to tell you about how you are now at this moment.
You are in grade one now but you talk and do things as if you are in High school already. I mean you already have your own laptop (lucky you for you have good mother like me who bought that for you,haha). You chat with me whenever we are skyping, learning maths was never fun than doing it over chat, right dear? You don't like any veggies. You eat french fries for every meal and every friday you don't take lunch like other days, for you prefer eating momo in your school canteen over food packed from home. You don't like meat at all. But I wouldn't call you a vegetarian for you devour dried-fish 'like  a seal' ( your dad uses this expression to describe us, dried-fish eaters). You are a big Hello- Kitty fan. Lemme see, you have  Hello-Kitty clothing, Hello- Kitty bags,Hello- Kitty stationery;Hello- Kitty camera....did I forget anything??? Well, anyway I've made my point with this...you are a BIG Hello-Kitty fan.
Not to forget, your 'sharchokp- never been to school' grandma finds it difficult to get into conversation with you for you talk only in Dzongkha and English. I don't know who put this silly idea in your head that one must talk in these two languages only. I wish you would get back to your sharchokp speaking spree like the year ago. But its amazing how one and a half year in school has drastically improved your Dzongkha and English( thanks to your teachers).
Everybody adores you. You are so easy with tears. You never hit others, not even when others hit you. Your li'l sister bullies you and you allow her to bully you. You are so soft Angie. It pains me to see you getting beaten by others. There is no friend of your who may not have bullied you. I fear for you dear. I want you to be able to defend yourself. I want you to learn to fight back.
And you are getting better with your lies. How can I forget the time your li'l sister was hospitalized and you made me believe that she is sleeping in the other room while she was actually sleeping in the hospital bed. Shed this role, right now! I don't want anymore liars although you are just a liar-in-making.
You are a creative magician. Every skyping hour I can't get away without seeing one of your magic tricks. Actually you are very good at it (if you wouldn't show me the trick I wouldn't know that there is a trick behind your magic). Go on, charm me as always li'l magician.
Who can get you away from the online games. I wonder how you can play those games before I can even figure out what it is. (Hey! I'm planning to get a DS or Wii for you,that was supposed to a secret,hehe). But more than your skills at these games I love it the best when you read out aloud to me. I've listened to THREE LITTLE PIGS and TOWN MOUSE AND COUNTRY MOUSE and now I'm waiting for you to read me your other books as well.
Dear, now that your birthday is done, we all know its my turn to play the birthday girl role. So I am waiting for the gift you promised to send me, your handwritten letter with a drawing of our castle and the four of us sitting in the garden outside with clouds floating near the yellow sun.
Happy Birthday dear.Mama loves you!a ton!