I Feel better!

I never knew I had Gandhiji's presence in my soul until today. We learned about the satyagraha movement of Gandhiji and if I remember correctly, in the class, I half heartedly listened to the boring history lesson and I candidly confess that when our principal showed us this movie on gandhiji I slept through all kinds of movement, satyagraha or hinsa,whatever!

Leo by birth I sometimes wonder about the well of tears that is easily available in my eyes. I feel my chinese astrological sign suits me more than my zodiac sunsign. I am more of the rooster than a Leo. Being a chicken(rooster) comes more easier to me than a lion(leo). But of late, with many people out to deceive me and twisting the very root of my existence to uproot my soul, I lie quietly on my bed not even casting an angry glance to them(But the tears are obviously there). A thought jabbed me hard in my chest,"you are a coward!"

That made me think a lot,"am I a coward? Am I actually maintaining silence because I can't raise my voice like the other party?" I took myself into the depth and today I've emerged,totally bruised but not beaten, I have my answers,"I am not a coward! Its just that I hate violence!" So then with that new found knowledge I almost felt like I had attained enlightenment.

Then I prepared myself to confront my so called friends and clear all the misunderstanding, just then I came across a line of wisdom from Paulo Coelho,"Don't explain. Your friends do not need it, and your enemies will not believe you!" It made me feel a halo of knowledge around my ignorant heart. I almost jumped with joy!

So, now I am back under my covers but not sulking anymore, I am rigid like a lion that I have my conscience clean and that counts more than the prayers and blessings my enemies attend.

(written to make myself feel better under the circumstances)