Dear Droopy,
5th April,2009 after a long strenuous day you blessed us with your arrival. It's so amazing, the time you chose to come in our world, your elder sister chose broad daylight while you chose the dark hours. I don't want to tell you of the pain that I had to undergo, which in fact was more than you ana's time but I remember seeing you with all my senses alert as soon as you came out of me and the first word I uttered was,'its a she!' Your dad thought I was asking him and replied,"I don't know." I gave him a smile and repeated,'its a she.' Then I thanked the nurse, which I had forgotten for hours during your ana's time.
Two years seem like a day ago yet there are so many moments I've seen that will remain for eternity and yet an inexplicable sadness envelops me for the small moments I've missed after leaving you with your grandparents. I'll always regret missing the year and a half of our togetherness and I blame none else but my ill fate for snatching this wonderful time away from me.
Droopy dear, I would like to call you my wonder child for you decided to come to my life in a very unlikely hour. I was mourning for my grandfather when I learnt about you taking shape inside me. I still can't believe you happened to me in such hour. Now when I look back, I feel blessed for even in such hour you chose to come in my world, that definitely signifies happiness stomping on my sad moments. You are the messiah of happiness while your ana is the angel who taught me what a mother should be like.
To tell you the most wonderful trait in you that sets you apart from all others is your dancing skill. You know you started dancing before you took your first step. I can never forget that tiny toes thumping to the music before it could take a step forward to take its first step. Your love for songs and music makes you a part of me even after the umbilical cord between us has been cut off.
Dear, may each birthday give you all the dreams that flows right in your arms and kiss you just when you need it the most. As you grow up, each Birthday will be a moment for me to celebrate,yet I know in this mother's heart some worries will always creep in: worries of the dark world casting its shadow over you ( I wish to shield you forever); worries about people coming in the guise of love to destroy you (I wish we had the eyes to sort between the fake and the real); worries of all things that pushed me in the deep dungeons of sadness( never shall I allow its shadow to peer at you) and so many other worries that only a mother's heart can feel and understand.
Tonight I shall stop my tears from making its presence in my eyes for I want my eyes to sparkle with all my love to make your day special and I want my eyes to speak all the love I want to send through the chasm of distance that lies between us.
I'm faraway from you geographically but I'm always right beside you, taking your tiny hands in mine and taking a step with you each time you take a step forward. I 'm right beside you, breathing softly on your forehead and singing lullabies to you as you sigh in your sleep. I'm there with you my dear: every waking hour, every dreams I am in, every time.
I love you dear, Happy Birthday.
For now, click on your laptop ( your grandfather should have given you the gift I sent you) and enjoy listening to Barbie, Mama shall join you soon!
